Dreams, Goals, + The Spots In Between

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Throughout my life, I have been told to "dream big", and that "no goal is too far out of reach". I learned early on that dreaming big is one of the best things I ever did for myself. At the age of 6, I found myself struggling to attend school, make solid friendships, let alone function without my parents' presence close by. Each day I would refuse to enter my classroom unless my dad came with. Consequently, I spent too much of my youth sitting at home, eventually ending up in a homeschool online program throughout middle school. On top of this bad anxiety, I was consistently bullied because of my weird differences.

By 12, we came to the conclusion that my young adoption had a lot to do with this anxiety problem, quickly diagnosed as SAD (Separation Anxiety Disorder), which within a few years became GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder). At age 14, I took a big step and elected to begin CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy) in order to change my life. This was my first goal: to start my sophomore year in high school away from my parents, making a whole bunch of friends, and fitting in as a "normal" kid without any stand-out quirks.

I did (most of) that. I wasn't "normal", and reached a lot of my educational, vocational, and leisure goals early on in my high school/college years. However, I did have a lot of friends, I learned to cope in scary, new situations without my parents, and entirely depended on myself for judgment in romantic relationships, study responsibilities, and my general quality of life. In these ways, I was "normal".

Throughout high school, I was involved in the GSA (Gay/Straight Alliance Club), helping fellow LGBTQ kids find safe spaces for conversation and trustworthy confidants within the school atmosphere. I was nominated for Student of the Month three times, recruited by reputable colleges, and asked to attend the National Young Leaders Conference in Washington, D.C., as well as given three scholarships towards college. I joined a local (national organization) nonprofit to serve on their Board of Directors, and two years later became secretary and social media lady. I volunteered in two local libraries as librarian assistant during this time. This life was much different than hiding in my invisible shell.

My goals have always come with a strategy of baby steps. If I could get through one more day at school, help a kid find a decent book to read at that same school years later, or be an ear to listen to someone's story, I was contributing something worthwhile. The week before I graduated high school, I went to my first ever job interview with a national retailer (might I add: a store where I get to be around fashion all day long) and nailed it, becoming one of a handful of Sales Associates at age 18 with no prior experience and a pretty lean resume. This job has taught me the value of not over-thinking and the skill of plowing through whichever task is at hand, increasing my ability to reach for my goals without hesitation.

I've learned that "normal" (although I challenge the notion that there is such a thing) isn't the coolest, most fun and challenging experience. While the other kids could get by being "normal", I've come to the realization that I won't ever be. I won't ever wish to follow the overly beaten path. I'd rather break the rules, change the game, and reach my dreams. In the next six months, I hope to gain a second job position, preferably in retail or at the college, cure some health issues I've been battling over the past year, as well as finally get that apartment I've been dreaming of, but was too scared to reach for before.