Last week was bad. Really bad. It was one of the worst weeks I've had in a long while. I was stressed, exhausted, overwhelmed and felt as though there was far too little appreciation of me from others.
We all have those moments. We feel we're not good enough, or we know we're good enough but we can't handle the way we're treated so negatively, all due to someone's perception of us. Someone who probably doesn't even know us all that well.
But here's the thing: first impressions and initial perceptions cannot be altered by us alone--they can ultimately only be altered by those who are quick to believe them. I've carried on throughout my life with misconceptions and exaggerated ideas from others on the topic of who Kathryn truly is. I've also held preconceived beliefs about others' behaviors and attitudes.
Surrounding myself with people who are strikingly different from me has always been the way I've chosen to live my life. Challenging myself to open my mind to new ideas, values and hobbies. Perhaps this misunderstanding is karma. Karma for letting in the "bad seeds," always chalking up problems to a difference of opinion or personality.
When it comes down to it: there are certain people we shouldn't let into our lives, that we shouldn't let affect us in such horrible ways and that we flat-out shouldn't trust. They're not necessarily terrible people, but they're terrible people for us. Shifting our perception this way allows us to have sympathy for the "bad seeds," while forgiving and removing the burden of stress from our own shoulders.
There have been a lot of questionable people in my life, and I'm sure I'm questionable to some. I'm coming to terms with the focus of taking care of myself and realizing that this is the only route to a happy, balanced life. The most important part of living life to its full potential is that we live it in a manner that we can be proud of, regardless of the values and belief system of others.